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Autumn is creeping in and that should be making me ecstatic. I should be coveting all forms of soft black lace, oogling the black boots cropping up in shoe stores, and doing some early scouting of Halloween merch. But I'm not.

I feel like depression has such a hold on me these days that it's hard to care about anything like that anymore. When I wake up in the morning, my only concern with the nearing fall weather is that it's cold and I'm uncomfortable. So I dig for a cozy pair of sweats and the warmest shirt I have.

I don't feel pretty. I don't feel like me. And I don't feel like trying.

Certainly, I used to be better than this. But when my life has fallen apart so completely that I can't see any way of putting it back together, I don't have the energy to even care about how limp my natural toned hair is or where my velvet skirt is. I've even given up on waiting for the phone call I was supposed to get about a job offer today....because I don't think it's coming.

I don't read anymore. I used to go through a book a week, at least. I used to watch ghost hunting shows like a loon. I used to have vampire movie marathons. I used to write constantly and I always had new ideas for novels or short stories.

These days, I just feel drained. And I can't be myself like that.

I don't know what to do anymore.

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  1. Hang in there. Please dont lose hope and if you do need to talk, I am here! You dont have to do this alone. If things get really bad for you, please reach out to a help line or a trusted friend. You deserve to not feel like this. *hugs*

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  2. We are all here for you if you need to talk! Sending good vibes your way.

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  3. Sending you best wishes and lots of warm thoughts. As Sylvie says, please hang in there.

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  4. I just saw that video today, it is fantastic!

    I really hope you are able to get some help soon, it is really awful you can't get support! I have been in a bad place before and I hope you find a way out of it again! It is frustrating that circumstances like not having a proper place to live or income can make these things worse!

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  5. I'm so sorry things are so dark. I really, really hope everything turns out and you can find some kind of support. It will get better, I swear, but until then stay strong. Really really wishing you all the luck in the world.

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