On the Cusp

Last week on Tuesday, I had a bit of a "mishap" at Biolife Plasma Services. It was a regular day and in the beginning a regular donation session. Unfortunately, I made the mistake of offering up my right arm, which contains a vein that has tendencies to prove troublesome. Most often, they can't get the needle situated just right in order to pull out ample amounts of blood and what tends to happen is a little wiggling around of said needle. Normally this isn't a huge issue, but they've propped it up against the vein wall before and THAT is uncomfortable. Seems that's what happened last Tuesday as well, only she pushed it a little bit further in than was necessary.



I think she knew right away that she had made a very grave mistake. Because after I complained about discomfort, she took the needle out of my arm and bandaged me up before getting my other arm hooked up, which then went flawlessly. What raised my suspicions even more was that little pack of ice she …

Last night I mustered up all the strength and courage that I had and took the elevator down to Sherburne's creepy and ominous basement. There was study room 6, a room designated for the depression support group every Tuesday at 6 pm. There's even a sign.


No one was there, so I sat in one of the less-than-comfortable chairs and waited. I didn't have to wait long, soon two girls came into the room. They introduced themselves, though for the life of me I can't remember their names. Anyways...one of them was the facilitator of the group and she welcomed me in. Soon more people showed up, a CA in a different building, one of my male classmates from English, an ethnic girl named Asha, and a very shy young man who's name I didn't catch - apparently he also suffers from social anxiety. In total there were maybe 7 or 8 of us. Not a terribly large group, but still enough to feel a bit self-conscious and anxious. 


Brief introductions were made and we talked shortly about wh…

Well dears, today is Tuesday. It's a rather bright and sunny day and the crisp winter temps have risen to something a bit more comfortable than below freezing, so I'm pleased with that. 


Also, I decided last night that I would try to dress up a bit more and hopefully use that to help lift my recently dismal mood. So I picked out some of my favorite wardrobe pieces and tossed them together with one or two items I don't wear much anymore.


The result:







Something casual with stripes. I haven't worn this particular tiered Hot Topic skirt in ages, but I'm sure glad I held onto it! I really like it paired up with a longer top! Since it's quite cold outside still, I added leggings and a cardigan. I'm not wearing my biker boots here, but that really pulled the outfit together. Add a hair bow and call it done! 


I didn't wear much makeup either, just a few slicks of mascara and some dusty eye-shadow. In my defense, I was pretty exhausted when I woke up and I couldn'…

It's a sad, sad thing when just sitting down to work on writing a blog entry makes you feel completely drained and dead. I remember the days when I was incredibly excited about getting this thing up and running. I wanted to post a TON of stuff, personal and otherwise. And I did quite a bit of both in the beginning.

Nowadays though, I can barely bring myself to whip up a quick "I'm still alive, will write more later" update. Even as I sit here, I'm trying to think of what to add in here to wrap this up so I can go curl up in bed with a cup of tea and stare out the window.

(brief intermission where I did actually make myself some tea)

I haven't been dressing up much lately, so I don't have any outfit snaps for you. I haven't been doing anything crafty or artsy, since I've been way too busy with school during the week and then sleeping on the weekends. I don't even really listen to music anymore, otherwise I might do some music spotlights or some…

Wanna know how I feel tonight?

That's how I feel tonight.

You see, I was recently notified that my beloved file-sharing website, MegaUpload, was viciously attacked and shut down by the United States Federal Government.  And by recently, I mean tonight. All this happened tonight. 




What does this mean, do you ask?

Well for one, it means I'm gonna have a heck of a time trying to find links to many of my favorite Asian dramas. It means, for a lot of other people, that any files they had uploaded - legally or otherwise, are now gone. My brother used MegaUpload to host a lot of photos and other files for his website. Now that it's all been removed, a good chunk of his web links don't work anymore. Thanks a lot, Feds.


In retaliation and protest, the hacker group Anonymous attacked the White Houses' website and many other industry's sites, including websites for major film and music companies. I feel that this is only the beginning to what is probably going to be a major in…

The other day, Google had a pretty cool image for their logo:


I'm a pretty big fan of the Addam's Family. I enjoy the movies and the old series is great too! So I literally squealed with delight when I saw that and immediately took a screen shot.

Also, on one of the fashion forums I frequently visit, one thread had exactly 666 replies. So I took a photo of that too.



Icing on the cake for all this? Friday is the 13th. ^_^

I was planning to start off this entry talking about my new classes that I attended today, but about a half hour after getting back to my (very lonely and empty) dorm room I sort of lost all the "genki" I had stored up to do so. Instead, I'm sitting in my room here trying not to cry. Because I just want to go home. Because I just want someone to talk to. I crave, no I need, some kind of meaningful human interaction. 


And I don't have it. Being here has made me realize all over again just how lonely this place is. People are so clique-ish, it's just like being in high school. If you were strange or different from the masses, you didn't get friends. I guess it's the same way here. The few people I do know on Facebook are always trying to cheer me up about my situation but I don't see any of them inviting me to hang out. Ever. 


Anyways, classes. I have two English classes on Monday and Wednesday, and then just one English course on Friday also. The first o…

(Since today is Sunday, before classes, I'm going to spend the day running around to locate my new classrooms and other such student-ly things. Please enjoy this small tutorial/idea in my stead!)


I'm always struggling for ideas about what to put up on my walls. I hate bare walls. I'm not a huge fan of posters though and buying pretty frames and paintings is just a little out of my spending range. So I decided that I would make some wall art on my own to hang up. 





Here are a few easy ideas:


1. Put cards on your walls. I got quite a few holiday cards from people all over the world this year and I figured, what better way to display them than putting them up on the walls. You can do this with any kind of card though. If you prefer spooky Halloween themed cards, go crazy with it! Vintage postcards or Victorian themed holiday cards would work great for this also! 


2. Hang up your jewelry. A lot of people keep their necklaces and bracelets in boxes. I got a jewelry rack for Christma…