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When Life Shits On You

Oh Look, a wig!

A lot of new things have happened to me since my last post here. A lot of personal and not so great things.

Thing, the first: I broke up with my boyfriend. It's something that was a long time in coming and it sort of all came to a head now that I've made a sincere attempt to straighten out my mental health and look into a proper future for myself. The boy has always been toxic to me, but I refused to acknowledge it until I stopped to think about all the times he put me down, killed my confidence, or just generally didn't care about anything I wanted out of life.

It was hard and there was crying involved, and then he wrote my brother a FB message about how much he hated him (which was REALLY uncalled for) but it's been radio silence on my end and I'm glad for that.

Thing, the second: I got myself a job. It's nothing neat or fancy (and I actually kind of hate it) but it's a paycheck and I can start saving up whilst paying off things that need …

Basic Bitch: Does it have a Goth equivalent?

Unless you live under a rock (hey, I'm not judging!) you've probably already heard the term "basic bitch" being bandied about. But what is it, exactly?

1. Have you seen Mean Girls? They wear pink on Wednesday's, you know. Basic Bitch.
2. In line at Starbucks, group of girls are instagramming their Pumpkin Spice Lattes. Basic Bitch.
3. Lauren Conrad, and anyone who adores or tries to emulate her. Totally basic.
4. Some of Youtube's most popular beauty gurus are basic bitches - Bethany Mota, Evelina, Michelle Phan, etc.
5. That girl you knew in college who always wore her UGG boots with Victoria's Secret Pink sweatpants and had ZERO personality - that's your basic bitch.

So I got to thinking: is there some kind of equivalent to the basic bitch in the Goth scene? There is and I call it: The Natural Goth. For this person, Goth is the end all, be all of their being - everything about them is Goth. Stereotypically or not.

It's kind of related to the Got…

Mixed Emotions: Taking Charge of my Life

There comes a time (or two or three) for every girl worth her salt to stop and take stock of her life situation. This is a time when she has to really look hard at the things surrounding her and decide what changes need to be made.

The few of you who follow me on FB know that I finally got a job recently. I just finished my second week of work and got my first paycheck. It was an empowering feeling - my feet still ache and I'm still exhausted, but I'm being paid for it!

It feels like a weight has been lifted. Now I can start making payments on the things I owe - school, the state, etc. I can start clearing away my debts, both physical and mental. I feel like I can start taking care of myself again, that I don't have to always rely on someone else to keep me alive. And with that comes a heady sense of freedom.

I feel like, in a few months to a year, I could just pick up and take off. Save up some money, pay off a few debts, and then just go. I want to leave behind all the b…

A Merry Trip to Helheim

Halloween/Samhain 2014

 Photo Heavy Post - Ye Be Warned!

An Appropriate End

I do realize that we're barely halfway into October, but I've decided to call it quits on the photo challenge. I'm having a hard time figuring out what exactly fits the themes presented and I have no motivation whatsoever to get dressed these days or wander about with my camera in tow.

As it IS October and the month of things that die, it seems an appropriate spot to just cut ties with the stupid challenge. So what do I plan to do with this useless blog in the interim? No clue.

Can you tell from the first two paragraphs that I'm a positively foul mood today? Blame the mental disorder - it's hitting hard. I have a counseling appointment next week and I'm contemplating bringing some booze and matches to burn the structure down. That's how optimistic I am about things.

I did have the good sense to wonder though if something nasty slipped through the portal recently and decided I would be a good host. For those who don't know, there's a doorway to the s…

October Photo Challenge: 6 & 7



October Photo Challenge: Day 5

Two Become One

October Photo Challenge: Days 1,2,3 & 4

Day 1 - Hats Off
Day 2 - Seasonal Colors
Day 3 - Everyday
Day 4 - Stormy

October Photo Challenge

I found both of these photo challenges on Pinterest and since it seemed like a simple but visually striking way to update my blog on the regular, I'm gonna go for it.

This first one is much more "Halloween" oriented so I'm leaning towards that version. Expect days 1 -3 up tomorrow sometime!

Black and White: A Trip to the Otherside

Eleven years ago, on September 27, my beloved grandmother passed away. Her funeral was held shortly after my birthday of Oct 1st - so the beginning of the month is always a bittersweet time for me. I thought it appropriate that not only would I kick off my October/Halloween blog sessions with a tribute to her (and death itself) but it also coincides with Sophistique Noir's Black and White Monthly Theme assignment.

This September 27, I decided to visit her grave and in doing so, found myself connecting with not only the cemetery itself but some of it's other inhabitants. And we all know that really poignant gravestone photos are hands down the black and white variety. So let's get started:

There seems to be a strange synchronicity in my family concerning life and death. My grandmother died on my mom's wedding anniversary (she's been divorced for nearly my entire lifetime, but I digress) and my brother was born on the day my would-have-been uncle died. It will be in…